WISH LIST AT THE END OF 2006

I saw this topic in "gossip book" (where people who are permitted to write in the book can write anything, and we call it gossip book) in my campus film community (LFM), and lately I've been thinking about what I wish to do (not what I wish to have) as soon as possible. Maybe its just my complains about things in my life lately, dunno.. But here it is, my wish list at the end of 2006..

1. I want to increase my weight.. About a year ago my weight was about 56 kilos, but right now it is 50 kilos. Well, I am not tall at all (my height is about 166 cm) and 50 is still normal for me, but it is in a lower limit of what it called "normal". If the weight is reducing linearly, then next year my weight will be 44!It is below, normal.Heheheh..
It is not about being ungrateful of having 50 kilos, but lately I realize that appearance is important. It's all about how people seeing me, and judging me for my appearance.. At least at a first glance. For example, if I have an interview for a work or something it will be terrible if I looked like an anorexic (not yet, as I said before I am still normal and looked normal, just a normal thin person) person. Plus, I have droopy eyes and untidy hair so sometimes people mistaken me for a drug abuser, someone who is stressed out, or someone who just woke up! So, I want to increase my weight to 56 kilos again, just like last year and in doing so, I eat 4 times a day, breakfast, lunch, dinner, and supper. Then I go to gym to bodybuild myself. Hope I get healthier as soon as possible.

2. Finishing my final report.. It's like I have an itch on my back. Its hard to finish it, and it's been a year since I got the topic. The problem is, I am not suited for the topic. My fault is a year ago I don't know what I am interested and so I let my proffesor deciding the topic for me, and now I am trapped with it. It is really hard to make an analysis for the testing and the data I got, and it is nowhere that I can find it in the books. Well, it is not that I am not working on it though.. But there are other problems too. The professor is being too perfectionist and yet, he is such an uncaring person. I never really had a "final project" talk with him. When I went to him he said "You should just run the test, then after everything are finished, we'll talk again". I did what he told me to, and after I talked to him again, he told me to do another tests. It makes everything runs slower than I had imagine. Its not that I want to blame everything to him, but my friends feels the same way too for him.
The deadline for the final test is on 22nd of January 2007 or I should take another credit and therefore I can't graduate until upcoming spring on July 2007. The other problem is I can't focus on this matter. I was distracted with too many tertiary things. Playing games, playing musics, internet, etc. So my wish is to be focused on this final report things and finished it at least on the 1st week of january next year.

3. Finishing my band song. It has been a month since the song was made. It such a good song and many people like it. But the thing is, it has no lyrics, nor vocal tone. when we made it for the 1st time, the song is gonna be an instrumental song, but lately we realize that this song needs a vocal and a good lyric to make it a complete song. I don't want to make the song worse for the lyric and vocal because the song material is quite beautiful and dreamy, and so I really need to think the best lyric and vocal for the song. And unfortunately, lately I am such a horrible poet. No good lyrics comes out of my head. I mean, there are many good words comes out of my brain, but I can't sew it into a good lyric, nor a good tone. But anyway, people said that a good song is not written, but it is rewritten. So what I need to do is open my english dictionary and my songbook and rewrite the materials that I wrote. With major repairs, and I need to learn more about poetic stuffs.

4. Get more concern with what happened to the world. I am such an ignorant person, a nincompoop. And that's not a good thing, you know.. I want to changed it a little, at least.. And I wish to maximize my humanity feelings concerning the other people or the surroundings. I wish to participate with greenpeace in the future. Yaay!!